Monster Brain Excerpts

​Enjoy these excerpts from my new book: Monster Brain: Conversations with OCD, Forty-Two Books, 2019.

Anxiety's Bane, page 44

You ever felt it:
the uncertainty and distrust?
Your own self a stranger
not knowing who to trust.
 
Fade in, fade out
the focus is so hard.
Bright lights, enemies--
soul wretched and marred."

​Alone IN A CROWD: A Short Film by OCD, page 56
 
"CUT TO BROKEN PERSON
BROKEN PERSON is filled with intense panic. Fright appears on their face, they fall to their knees.
                         BROKEN PERSON
                               NO...NO
                        OCD (V.O)
                  Lade dah, let’s try the old plate to the head! Better yet, hammer to the                                  temple instead.
Sharp jolted camera angles zoom onto BROKEN PERSON’S face with angled sunlight illuminating their terror.
                      OCD (V.O)
               Maybe we can hack off the limbs and pretend it’s Dicken’s little Tims.
              Or smash in the face, just like the show,  and find relief, with the killing blow." 

A Day in the Life of Compulsion, page 78       

Brain Trippin', page 113

​"I said oh well!! Don’t care.” he said nonchalant as the anxiety welled inside. The mental struggle was exhausting, the unrelenting grind of obsessive compulsive disorder never relented on the organic machine.             
“Well Daniel, how about try this fry pan on for size. See how hard it hits the brain with ease?” said OCD
“I don’t care. I don’t want to care about fry pan weights on skulls.”
“Now, let’s try to see the exploding brains that fly out when you strike.”
“Ugh, disgusting. Too bad it’s a watermelon now.”
“Problem solved” smiled OCD. “We’ll just reset the loop.”"

Heteroflexibe?, page 126

​"You could suck off every jock in this locker room and swallow their loads like horchata!
*startle* “WTF!?”
Every dick I suck means I’m gayer than the rest.
“What, I don’t suck dick!”
Yeah bro, it’s the hottest thing.
“OMG, what are you talking about.”
Why don’t you try it, you might like it enough to switch."

Hue of Blue, page 148

"With hue of blue, Clonazepam.
You sit on the shelf each night,
eyeing me with your tranquil plot.
I resist like I know I ought.
But, can’t help to think you’re right.
 
You land inside so easily.
Taking you is so breezily.
I close my eyes before the ride,
with hue of blue.
 
Sleep comes as the fairy dreamland.
No better feeling than dreamsands.
I, in wake of anxiety,
escape OCD quietly.
O, there in sleep I make my stand,
with hue of blue."